April 19, 2020

Certain things caused expectation, disappointment and sadness today. The melancholy feeling stayed in my heart and I felt life getting complicated.

• “I just want to let it all go and be with my Lord”

I thought and longed for the simplicity of just Him and me.

YEARS AGO:

Exasperated and close to tears and biting my lower lip because life was hard – what else could I do but go to bed knowing that life would be better tomorrow?

• “I never said it would be easy I only said it would be worth it.“

The phrase was my mantra of strength while laying down. My bed was my cocoon – my relief – my reprieve. Hard times got replaced with peaceful sleep that allowed me to start each new day happy.

MUCH EARLIER:

It’s always been me and my Lord. Nighttime sleep has always washed away yesterday and has brought a new tomorrow, this happened to me even when I was a young child. Every day of my life begins with me being happy.

• “But the Comforter, which is the Holy Ghost, whom the Father will send in my name, he shall teach you all things, and bring all things to your remembrance, whatsoever I have said unto you. Peace I leave with you, my peace I give unto you: not as the world giveth, give I unto you. Let not your heart be troubled, neither let it be afraid.” (John 14:26-27)

Looking back, I remember and now understand. How personal are “Peace” and “Let not your heart be troubled”; what love. <3