Trials, challenges and suffering are so very hard to bear. Sometimes nothing comforts the hole in my heart because I want back what used to be in the hole or want the hole to go away. I think of the Savior when he said,
- “I will not leave you comfortless: I will come to you.”
- “Peace I leave with you, my peace I give unto you: not as the world giveth, give I unto you. Let not your heart be troubled, neither let it be afraid.”
and look back to 2008, before knowing I had MS, and how the Lord did come to me and comforted me, and how he spoke peace to my troubled heart.
Before receiving an MS diagnosis I felt extremely afraid, greatly exposed and that my entire world was shaken up, and it was a super-hard time for me because I was very private and in control. I was 39 years old and my life was good but then everything about me abruptly changed. I knew something was wrong but no one could tell me what it was and that made me panic.
The beattitude about mourning is on my mind:
- “blessed are all they that mourn, for they shall be comforted.”
- “Mourn”synonyms: (verb: be sad over loss) ache, agonize, anguish, be brokenhearted, be sad, bemoan, bewail, bleed, blubber, carry on, complain, cry, deplore, fret, grieve, hurt, keen, lament, languish, long for, miss, moan, pine, regret, repine, rue, sigh, sob, sorrow, suffer, take it hard, wail, wear black, weep, wring hands, yearn.
Everyone can relate to being sad over loss, especially with the Covid-19 pandemic. I just want to say my intimate feelings that when I turn to the Lord to help me He is always there. I love Him for being my close, personal friend. <3