In my formative late teenage and early young adult years metaphysical “spirituality “ came into my life and caused me to wonder about believing in my childhood beliefs. I was already not attending church because of not fitting in as a teenage and young, single mother. I wanted to be with my church friends but there wasn’t a place for me so my only option was finding my own way in life which included working and caring for my son.
The book You Can Heal Your Life by Louise Hay crossed my path and I adored her loving words. The metaphysical group “Good Life” embraced me and their teachings made me feel good. A three-day seminar in Salt Lake City, Utah brought new language and intense exercises that comforted and taught me many new ideas. Deeply immersed in this new culture filled my longing heart with connection.
New words changed old concepts (such as not “God” but “Universe”) and I didn’t mind because in my heart the words didn’t matter but meant the same things. What I loved about the metaphysical world were the feelings of love, acceptance, kindness and unity.
Years later the metaphysical world holds a special memory in my heart. True feelings are love (not hate) acceptance (not judgment) unity (not division) humility (not pride) and submission (not ego.)
Truth is truth and holiness is holiness and I seek knowing both. The temple of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints brought me feelings of holiness as much as did the Chinese temple exhibition in Kansas City of Buddha and “Bodhisattvas” when visiting them both in 2005. I like feeling God in my life, having a divine connection and knowing that life has a purpose.
What speaks my language? Love and seeking it.
I love the feeling of belonging; unity. I love knowing that no two people are alike and yet focusing on what we have in common. I believe that more things bring us together than that pull us apart.
I love truth, logic and what makes sense. I love asking myself is that true? And then following the feelings in my heart.
Most of all, I love God. I want Him in in my life right now, I want to live with Him one day in heaven and I believe my desires are possible as I work for them. I do my utmost to let God prevail and be the most important influence in my life.