May 26th: I live my life and do what I can do. It all comes down to showers. I don’t want to bathe or take a shower because it’s so very tiring. I get bummed because I have to shower and know it will be hard. I don’t even want to say “help me” but just want to feel sorry for myself. I know I’m strong, but right now I just want to sit here and hang out. I don’t want to shower today so I won’t.
MAY 28th: I was going to shower today but I just couldn’t do it, so I didn’t.
May 29th: I took a bath today (for some reason showering seemed extremely hard) and although it wasn’t my favorite, and although I’m greatly tired, I did it. I’ve surprised myself four times by thinking “I can’t do this again” and then I do it again. These experiences teach me just how strong I am and I’m grateful – grateful that even in weakness I have strength.