Throwback to 2018, when I turned 50: My friend took me out to lunch on September 17, 2018 to celebrate my 50th birthday. I said, “AND we’re also celebrating that exactly ten years ago today I was diagnosed with having MS.” She said, “We’re celebrating that?!!” I said, “Absolutely!! I’ve endured having MS for ten years and that’s a major accomplishment, so we’re celebrating it!!”
I wouldn’t wish a chronic disease on anyone but, to me, my MS has given me more than it’s taken away. It’s been almost 12 years now (of me having MS) and life goes on. With all my heart I believe that I can improve and accomplish things no matter what happens to me or goes on in my life. People can be hysterical and life can spin out of control but my choice is always my response in whatever I experience.
Drama may throw me off for a while and rile me up but eventually I’ll come to my senses and will need to make a decision. Will I stay on auto-pilot and react? or Will I make up my own mind and do what feels best in my heart? Whatever I choose determines my direction. I’m a control-freak in that no one controls my life but me; it just doesn’t feel right until I call the shots in my life. (The great thing is that if it doesn’t feel right then I can choose again!)
At first MS threw me for a loop and for a few years I floundered while gathering my senses, but one day I decided to do what felt best. (And I never looked back.) I took 100% responsibility for my life that day and it was so very liberating!! That action was the turning point that directed my life to where it is today, and I have no regrets. My MS “is what it is” and I appreciate and celebrate it.