It’s 8:00 PM, Per is on his way to work in Australia for a week and I want to do something productive rather than sit here. After changing into comfy clothes I decided to clean my closet, but while sitting at my vanity removing my makeup I knew I was done for the day.
A pang of sadness fluttered across my heart but I thought Nope! I won’t be sad! and instead walked over to the closet, turned off the light and closed the door. If the ten year trial of having MS has given me anything it’s increased my patience and helped me be easy on myself.
Before having MS: (1) I was extremely impatient; I wanted things immediately and if they didn’t happen I got mad, bothered or bent out of shape. (2) When facing bummer experiences and sad thoughts popped into my mind I dwelled on sadness and thought about how much I didn’t like it.
Now: (1) Although I want things immediately I’m willing to wait if its not the right time. (2) When facing bummer experiences and sad thoughts pop into my mind I don’t dwell on sadness but instead let it go and refocus my thoughts.
Before getting MS I was fragile and now I’m strong. I’m grateful for the improvements in me and know that what I want will be at the right time.