It’s so much more rooted within me when I figure it out and realize it myself. I want them to tell me because I’m impatient-I want to know right now-but when I learn by experience the knowledge is in my heart, and it’s there because I learned it for myself.
Sometimes it’s hard and I don’t want to learn and I think I don’t have any more capacity to grow. I pray, “Why do I have to go through this?” and my mind’s thought is “Because you can handle it.” I pray, “Please comfort me” and as I face the trial I know He will.
“And he…went…to the mount of Olives. And when he was at the place…he was withdrawn from them about a stone’s cast, and kneeled down, and prayed, Saying, Father, if thou be willing, remove this cup from me: nevertheless not my will, but thine, be done. And there appeared an angel unto him from heaven, strengthening him. And being in an agony he prayed more earnestly: and his sweat was as it were great drops of blood falling down to the ground.”
The Lord comforts me in times of trial (when I let Him.) Jesus’ experience in the Garden teaches me to pray “If THOU be willing” and “THY will be done” because it’s not about what I want but what He wants. The Lord knows my potential and it’s through experience and facing trials that I become closer to the perfect me. I’m grateful He lets me experience and figure it out (even though it hurts) because when I’m on the other side, triumphant is when I’ve grown.