The Lord taught me a very personal lesson today and I understood it perfectly. Since being a teenage girl I’ve tried very much to make my appearance acceptable to others. From hair and nails to clothes and shoes I’ve worn what was in fashion, what magazines said the trends were, what clothing stores displayed, and what others wore. I tried very hard and did my best, yet in my mind always pursued an ideal just out of my reach…never feeling like “I’m there, I’ve made it” but “One day.”
Today I researched the word “Weakness” in the scriptures and went to every verse listed in the New Testament. There were several verses in 1&2 Corinthians of Paul writing to the Saints in Corinth. What struck me was when he wrote how the Saints basically said his words were so powerful and yet his appearance was so homely. He said to them that outer appearance didn’t matter but what mattered was the power of God manifest in his words; basically, it wasn’t about him but about God. He asked them if they wanted him to look nicer or if they wanted to feel the spirit of God.
A thought was in my mind that ‘if appearance didn’t matter you would be accepted. Outer appearance doesn’t matter to God but what’s in your heart. You are accepted by him.’ I thought about the many times since being sick that I went out without wearing makeup or doing my hair or not wearing a bra and how neither Per nor Andrew ever complained that I needed to look better. (In those instances it was the best I could do.) I’ve never been inappropriate but have learned that giving less than 100% when it’s my best is accepted by the Lord.
Today when realizing all this I felt overwhelmed with the spirit and like my heart would explode with happiness; truly, it was a “My cup runneth over” moment.
The Lord knows the personal and very intimate details of my life. He is good and always helps me improve. Today He helped by teaching me about appearance in a way that I understood. I love Him, He is my rock and my everlasting God.