April 19, 2020
Certain things caused expectation, disappointment and sadness today. The melancholy feeling stayed in my heart and I felt life getting complicated.
- “I just want to let it all go and be with my Lord”
I thought and longed for the simplicity of just Him and me.
Exasperated and close to tears and biting my lower lip because life was hard – what else could I do but go to bed knowing that life would be better tomorrow?
- “I never said it would be easy I only said it would be worth it.“
The phrase was my mantra of strength while laying down. My bed was my cocoon – my relief – my reprieve. Hard times got replaced with peaceful sleep that allowed me to start each new day happy.
It’s always been me and my Lord. Nighttime sleep has always washed away yesterday and has brought a new tomorrow, this happened to me even when I was a young child. Every day of my life begins with me being happy.
- “But the Comforter, which is the Holy Ghost, whom the Father will send in my name, he shall teach you all things, and bring all things to your remembrance, whatsoever I have said unto you. Peace I leave with you, my peace I give unto you: not as the world giveth, give I unto you. Let not your heart be troubled, neither let it be afraid.” (John 14:26-27)
Looking back, I remember and now understand. How personal are “Peace” and “Let not your heart be troubled”; what love. <3