My life is whatever I make it. Like an artist painting a picture, first is a blank canvas. I’ve been distant from the world for 13 years but feel to come closer once again. Here are some ways I will create my life’s painting:
Being a Better Friend
I can see how people don’t visit me when I never go visit them. My excuses have been, “I have MS and it’s hard for me to get out so they need to understand and visit me” or “I’m older and they should visit me out of respect” but those excuses are dumb. The facts are that we get what we give, in the most important cases family ties and friendship; we do things we value, even if it’s hard. I can go to people’s houses and visit them, even if it’s hard and even if it’s not for very long, and put forth the effort because they matter to me. Actions speak louder than words.
In my younger years I never knew a truly loving family-one without turmoil, drama and dysfunction. What I know now is that when I’m on auto-pilot I do what I know, even if it’s what I dislike. But consciously knowing what I don’t want means knowing what I do want and so my focus turns to my idea of what “family” means to me:
- Hearing others.
- Allow expression without judgment.
- Fostering a safe environment.
- Loving and accepting people as they are: “It is what it is.”
- Encouraging others.
- Supporting others.
Weaknesses Made Strong
We all have weaknesses and I have no right to judge anyone because we’re all flawed in some way. But I truly believe my weaknesses can be made strong as I put my faith and trust in the Lord to help me. It’s all about me taking a leap of faith and Him responding with divine grace through the Atonement of Jesus Christ.