My journal entry today:
Yesterday’s thought was, “No expectations. Let the world go.” Today’s thought is, “Even what you love. Let go of what you love trusting that with covenants, ordinances and promises you have them still.” My family is on my mind.
My heart holds on to my family and it keeps me in the temporal world. The thought of letting them go makes me cry because I love them so, but they’ll always be with me. Let go and take the leap of faith. It’s personal. I trust the Lord’s excellence.
Letting go is an act of faith; it’s not that my family is out of my life. In great faith I choose letting go (in my heart) of what I love and trust that with covenants, ordinances and promises I have them still. My act of faith transcends the temporal world of time to the spiritual world of miracles.
I see meaning in this commandment:
- Thou shalt have no other gods before me. (Exodus 20:3)
Nothing comes before God, not even what I love. I think of Abraham and Isaac; essentially God asked the same from Abraham-sacrifice what you love and put me first (we all know how the story ended).
- And verily I say unto thee that thou shalt lay aside the things of this world, and seek for the things of a better. (D&C 25:10)
Wow, that scripture says it all.
- I will go and do the things which the Lord hath commanded, for I know that the Lord giveth no commandments unto the children of men, save he shall prepare a way for them that they may accomplish the thing which he commandeth them. (1 Nephi 3:7)
God has provided a way for me to retain what I love through covenants, ordinances and promises.
- Naked came I out of my mother’s womb, and naked shall I return thither: the Lord gave, and the Lord hath taken away; blessed be the name of the Lord. (Job 1:21)
I came to this world with nothing and leave with nothing (but increased faith and knowledge.) Everyone is free to live their life and I’m free to live mine. Blessed be the name of the Lord.
- All these things shall give thee experience, and shall be for thy good. (D&C 122:7)
I’m grateful and understand.
PHILOSOPHICAL THOUGHTS: Parents raising children make decisions for them and assume responsibility for them because they’re parents. Part of being grown up is taking responsibility for myself. (What I say, what I do and what I do or don’t have.)
Letting go in my heart means two things: 1) Transcending faith. 2) Letting go of responsibility for anyone who can be responsible for themselves and trusting God to care for those I love. (He leads each person’s life.) Regarding my grown children, I take a back seat to God. Thou shalt have no other gods before me. (Exodus 20:3) Nothing comes before God, not even me and my control.