MY BODY: My thought was, ‘There’s nothing I hate more than my body!’ I stopped and thought about it.
- Logic: Why do I hate my body? Do I really feel that way? The sad notion of focusing on my flaws makes me hate myself. I’m not aware of every thought in my mind and negative auto-pilot self-talk doesn’t help me. It’s a lie (not true) that “I hate my body” when the truth is that I love my body and am grateful for it.
BEAUTY: My weight has plagued me my entire life because I needed to meet the world’s standard of beauty.
- Logic: Why does beauty mean physical beauty? Who gets to decide what’s beautiful? Beauty is relative depending on who is asked to define it and according to what. In my auto-pilot mind a person could have good looks but a terribly unrefined character, it seems like a shallow plan of unhappiness to get me to hate myself again. Conscious truth: My character defines me and makes me beautiful, not my looks.
I’m catching on to the unhappy idea that I need to hate myself. No! Time for a pep talk: “I love myself. I’m beautiful, smart, amazing, good and what this world needs.” Auto-pilot, unaware thinking is for chumps and when it happens to me and I become aware of it I think about what I’m telling myself and if it’s a lie I change it to the truth.