I metaphorically stood at a crossroad this morning of either doubting or believing something. Worry was in my heart at the prospect of it being untrue. I felt sadness and turmoil while lying in my bed thinking about it, and the idea of it being false troubled me considerably.
While lying in my bed I grabbed my iPad to hear inspirational songs. Song after song played that confirmed the feelings in my heart and greatly comforted my soul. I laid there for an hour doing things on my iPad and then decided to get up. I’m all in repeated in my mind which meant that my decision was to emphatically believe.
After dressing and readying myself for the day I did my usual routine of going into the living room and opening the blinds. My routine continued as I plugged in my phone and iPad to charge, and while they updated I turned on the TV/Roku to YouTube to watch a Conference talk and maintain my frame of mind. YouTube’s Recommended videos showed a Conference talk by President Monson that had previously been heard. I loved this talk and so chose to hear Stand in Holy Places again.
The end of the talk was what I loved each time. President Monson said, “We remember the Lord’s precious promise to those who trust in Him: “Fear thou not; for I am with thee: be not dismayed; for I am thy God: I will strengthen thee; yea, I will help thee; yea, I will uphold thee with the right hand of my righteousness.” What a promise!” It was as if President Monson was speaking to me!
My mind’s eye thought back. I saw being worried, hearing music that comforted me, deciding, and listening to words that I believe the Lord wanted me to know. The Lord knew the worry in my heart this morning and comforted, counseled, strengthened and gave me peace. My relationship with Him is personal. He knows and helps me as much as possible. My heart is full of gratitude and once again I declare that the Lord is my rock and my everlasting God.